You have to forgive me..

All I can say is that you have to forgive me. I can't give you everything, I just want you to trust me that I will never ever do it again. Feels like my world shattered. I don't have any reason, why I did it. But the main thing here is I knew that it will hurt you, and I still did it. I'm sorry for my actions. Plain stupidity. From this day on, you can call me a genuine dishonest man. It's not easy na tawagan kang ganyan, and it's not easy.. First of all no one will trsut you anymore, well that's the point. How can I live with this, for having a bad record.. I'm not even sure if I have true friends, or even fake ones. I'm all by myself. I will fix this with my own.