It's official.

I'm the worst boyfriend ever.. And I have the bestest girl ever. Narinig ko na lahat ng ayokong marinig, which makes me well the worst boyfriend ever. I'm at the peak already. Bago ako makababa.. Madaming pag dadaanan. Parang di na natatapos. I'm being the worst possible version of myself. Di na natatapos one thing I know. Iba nanaman pinagaawayan... Halos different angles mong tignan di mawawala. Lahat yun masakit tanggapin kasi... Siya na nga lang nakakasama ko. Tapos di pa daw parati.. Well, I have no one to give my time na kung hindi sa kanya. Ang hirap na talaga. Di ko alam kung di niya matanggap yung best ko o hindi ko pa toh best. I try to surprise her, give her things, love her more, but that's not enough.

I'm just thankful na di niya pa ako iniiwan. I'll be happy I am happy... Pag dumating yung araw na yun. it would be hurtful but yet.. Truthful.

If her love isn't deep for me, she'll find someone better. If she likes someone already, masakit.

The top 5 personalities of my girl..

Here are the top 5 personalities of my one and only love. :)


1. Flirty Lea - One of my favorites. But not my top. She gives me this exotic temptress' eyes. I sends chills to my bones. She'll get closer and closer. Gives me random kisses.. I'm on my knees, every time she turns into this sexy beast.. That I could only restrain. Hopefully. What a sexual preference.

2. Possessive Lea - This is quite a curve ball. When she gives me this look that signifies uhmm.. Possessive-ness. It's really cute! When you see her making these weird faces. It brings joy to my heart, because she wants to make sure. That she's mine... All mine. Sweet, there's plenty of me to go around! :D

3. The Weird one/ The Serious one - Now, this personality is kinda scary, because it feels like she's hiding something from me. Acting all goofy and all. Being quite or Gazing through the sky or the ceiling sometimes. Ang seryoso lang minsan. I can't read her all the time. Sometimes we fight about nothing. Because sometimes her nothing is just not nothing.. There's something, definitely. Scariest for me. Ang sexy niya pa din. :D

4. The blissful one - When bliss is present. There's nothing to worry about. Love is in the air. Nothing could go wrong. Do I need to explain bliss. I'm the one who could only assure that for her. And sometimes it hurts me, because sometimes I can't give that to her.. She suddenly turns to the 3rd one which is the weird one. So that is definitely hard to handle. But it's pretty obvious when she's happy. Kahit saan mo pa dalhin. She smiles of course, and her eyes. Oh man, her eyes.. The perfect weapon of happiness. Even if you cover her lips. You can still tell that she's happy. Her eyes I just can't describe it. Whenever I look into it. Parang I'm sucked by a vortex of rainbow. You can definitely see that there's one happy soul.

1. Mr. Lea Andrea Mauro - She gets what she wants. PERIOD! And I love that. Because all she wants is me. I guess you're wondering why Mr.?! Mr. I'm turning into her. Full of Passion and Devotion. And yun yung minsan na pagkukulang ko. Ever time we argue. Sometimes. parang ang sarap na lang niyang yakapin kasi all she's trying to say is FIX THIS, BECAUSE I CARE, AND I LOVE YOU. "I'm trying to say what I feel para mapasaya mo ako lalo" type of attitude. I lack of understanding kasi how can I understand her when she's standing under me. WORDPLAY! Woot! :* She's the boss. I love my boss, commander, and Goddess. The CEO of my life.

That's it! My top 5 personalities of Lea. Whatever personality she show. I equally love them all. She's the one, but five is better. 5 of her that is. I love her for her. And only her.

The greatest detective with Catwoman...

The Dark Knight's Kryptonite. Catwoman. Rawr. Ang hot lang ng counterpart ko.

Hello..

Let me allow to introduce myself.. My name is Harold Kevin L. Yoingco. You can call me Ken, Harold.. Whatever.

I love comics.

I love collecting figures.

I have a boring life.

I like going to dinners.. Just dinners.

I love eating food. If it looks good I eat it.

I love when people know what they want.

I love it when people stand up for themselves.

I love when people ask me what do I want.

I love knowing things.

I have a big ego.

I can't lie. I can't

I tell the things even if it leads to hurting someone including the people I love.

I say what I want. Even if it's not the right time. I say it.

I love the movie Superman II Richard Donner cut. That's the most important movie for me.
I hate it when people say na wala silang ginagawang maayos...
I love it when I dress up nicely.
I hate it when people think they're not beautiful.
I tend to tell my stories.. Rarely.
I never open up when I don't know you.
I love making things when I know it will make someone happy.
I hate it when people doubt me.
I hate it when people doesn't believe me.
If I think what is right I do or say it.
I never leave without saying goodbye.
I love me for me can I be phony to myself? No.
I hate drinking. Unless may special event.
I hate to be lonely.
I love my circle right now.
I'm satisfied with what I have now.
I hate conversing with people who doesn't know what they want... Nasabi ko na ata toh.
I like bragging kung meron man ako.
I like seeing my loved ones happy.
I can't do things right, most of the time. But I know what I'm doing.
I hate it when I'm being judged sa nararamadaman ko kasi ako naman yung nakakaramdam.
I'm not smart... But I can survive.
I don't need your opinion unless importante ka sakin.
Honesty is the best policy.. Whether it's late.
Being mad is the one thing I do best.
If I love something.. I will love it to the fullest.
I love Lea.
Gossip, Gossip.
I'm jealous.
I'm broke.
I'm ill, because I'm suffering from realness.
Madali akong masaktan.
If I'm sure. I'm sure.
I'm sensitive.
I cry a lot.
I like Kanye.
I love Jay-Z.
I don't understand a lot of things.
I have a problem listening.
I save for my wants and needs.
I could dress all black for 10 years.
I hate being late.
I like being early.
I love silence.
I seldom like fighting. It brings out the best.
I love brutal honesty.
If I ask you a yes or no question... Just don't ask why.
I love Lea.
I enjoy reading a lot. (Comics)
I like walking. I love walking.. Kahit gaano pa kainit or kalayo.
Loooove is what important, because I tend to do things na hindi ko alam na magagawa ko.
I don't think love is cruel. We're cruel.
I hate people when they pretend.
I hate posers. About Comics.
I'm mean.
I don't like parties.
I don't like clubs.
I love markets.
Morning person.
I like being home.
I'm scared.

She knows me.

I miss you..

Wala na akong pwedeng gawin eh. Kung pwede lang lumipad sana alam mo nasa tabi na kita. Masakit pag nalaman mong hindi mo naipapakiita yung gusto mong maramdaman niya. Sinisi ko siguro ko kasi... Inaamin ko I've been less. Nahalata ko. I know making up for everything isn't the right thing. Kasi pwede namang hindi na mag make up.

Ang hirap ng ganito pag hindi mag kasama..

I don't know what to do.

I know I left you speechless. Eh mahal na mahal naman kita eh. Hindi mo na ba nararamdaman yun. Parang you don't feel my love anymore. Which is sad. You just put yourself in a position na sa tingin mo ikaw na lang nagmamahal sating dalawa. Or ako ba yung dahilan kaya nasa position kang ganyan.

Honestly, di naman tayo nagtutulungan. I admit it. Ang sakit sakit lang talaga.

The scene that I will never forget.. Because I can relate to it. pt.2

I can't seem to type... Anyways. The first time I watched this movie. The Notebook. I know it's kinda mushy and all, but It got me so hard. Because basically I can relate to this one scene (pt.1 of this blog title)

The past few weeks.. Honestly we've been fighting all the time. Misunderstandings, A lot of it. We can't agree on everything. Well almost everything, because we tend to answer back, bicker a lot. Walang nagpapatalo.

But we definitely agree on one thing. And that's love. We love each other so much. We get to the point that either one of us says something hurtful. I hope she didn't mean it, but she does every word of it, because that's how she sees me. I can't blame her for that. Kahit gaano pa ka sakit.. In the end I'm still standing. Because I love her. I can live like this. Siya lang naman na gusto kung makasama habang buhay. At kung dumating na sa point na she doesn't feel the same. Every day of my life. I will work my ass of para lang mabalik yung dati niyang mararamdaman. Mahal na mahal ko siya. And I'm very happy sa meron kami.

I love you, Lea.. That's it. Walang ng makakatalo dun.

The scene that I will never forget.. Because I can relate to it.

Speak now.

These two words are powerful. You can say anything.. Highly blissful or pure agony (Brutal honesty).

From now on. I speak only for happiness.. Which is always delivered to Lea.