All I want is you.

All the promises we make, from cradle to the grave. When all I want is you.

A love where the "promises we make" are too grand to support.

 I make promises to my lover, and they all sound wonderful, but I think it's unnecessary. When I only want is her. Everything else is a distraction.

True love is.. I guess, ultimate selflessness, living to make another person happy in any and every way that you can.

Is it me..

Is it me or I'm just being paranoid, or whatever. I kinda feel being less, and I'm not sure what less is. It's eating me up inside. I know I can't ask for more, because that's it. Maybe, I'll just have to wait for that "more".

I'm beginning to think that I'm doing something to make whatever it is to be less. I have so much going on right now. I really can't tell what that less is.

I think it's me. I'm not being that "more" to the one who deserves more. I am happy with this. I'm happy with my life now. I'm happy.

When I think of it. My mind goes blank. I really have no idea what this less is.  I think I have done some certain things that made me feel less.

The more I see myself... The less I know for sure.

Aggravate.

I have this thing that I ruin moments. I aggravate. I'm definite, that it's a bad thing. I don't need to keep my mouth shut, all I have to do is know and when to say it.

Makes me think, does honesty needs timing? I guess you can be honest about it. Just not be brutal about it. I just can't hold down. Because it's life we're talking about here. I can't go easy with that. I may pry about it, but sweet, I'm the only one who cares this much for you. Except for your parents, but you see my point.

We have started great but we ended depressingly pissed, or maybe siya lang. And I could never take that away from her.

My life.

My life right now isn't perfect, but when it comes to my source of happiness. There's no question that it's perfect. 

Proof! 

See! :D 

Finally found it!

Regina Spektor - Samson

I've been looking forever for that song and I finally found it, because of my one true love, Lea Andrea Mauro. I love you sooo much! I thank you! :'( It took me 3 years, 3 years... At ikaw lang pala ang hinahanap ko. Everything's with you.. You are my everything.

 The first time I watched the movie "Rumor has it" that song played, and it got me so hard. The voice just so soothing, and the heavy melody of the music. It's too heavy, very emotional. Ang tagal kung hinanap toh, and I loss faith. I gave up looking for it. Well, it took me 2 days of searching and I'm not pretty sure why it took me that long.

The song was played where the scene was Ms.Aniston is going home to her apartment to her future husband, Mr.Ruffalo. Apparently, Aniston got caught kissing someone else. Well, that's not the whole story. With that intense scene and on-screen love. The song and the scene is a perfect match.

Well, jus so you know... I loved Lea first. ;)

Complete my family.

This is the first time that I'll be posting something like this. It's not about my love, my attitude, the way I feel, or about comics.

This post is about my Family. I love them to death. And they give me the kind of attitude that you'll go, "I could die any day" type of attitude.

I'll start of with my Dad or Pops. He's this egoistic person. That you really can't brush it off from his shoulders, but he has this saying. I mean he didn't say it to me, but it's obvious that he wants us to live by this line. " I'll never let my son have my ego, he'll be nice to everyone, wherever we go." That's the kind of love that's going to help us keep grounded.
He already said "Sorry Son, I ruined you." because he.. Uhmm.. Well, he ruined our lives. Sad but true. He swallowed his pride just to apologize, well those aren't the exact words but you see my point. We know he talks the truth when he speak, give your word, dad. keep it. And if the day comes. I only see him the whole day in the weekend, specifically Sunday. I remembered he scolded me. Because I was keeping secrets or not telling what we feel or what we want. He said "Gusto ko kabarkada turing niyo sakin, ako lang ang kabarkada niyo habang buhay." Naiyak ako nung sinabi niya yun. Kasi I realized na parang Big Brother lang gusto niya mangyari... And I want that for the rest of my life. He just wanted to bond our charters, all the shit tha he never did, teach us good values, and just cherish it. Whatever I may be. I'm your son and I love you.

Now, my Mom... My Mom is this calm loving Mom. I wanna scream so loud for her, because I'm so proud of you. I promised to myself that I'll love her till she don't hurt no more. I can't stand her seeing her hurting, because of the life that we have now. A few days ago she said to me "Wag na lang magreklamo. Bilangin na lang ang blessings." That's very common but it's sooo true. I agree with her 110%. She's the coolest mom. She makes her laugh with her slow gesture when it comes to jokes, her wrong pronunciation with words, her sill stories and all. I love her for that, I hope she can see that. See she's unbreakable, unmistakable, highly capable. She went through hell for us. She deserves Heaven.

Mommy since you brought me to this world, let me take you out to a restaurant, Pho Hoa. I'm gonna try to give you what you want. It doesn't need to be Mother's day or your birthday for me just to call you and say I love you.

That's it from now yo! next will be my siblings. I started with the guys who brought me to this world... I'm blessed to have them as my parents.

Isn't so simplistic..

If the world was ours, we would have it all. But the life we live isn't so simplistic. We just don't get what we want all the time. Things will be limited and we can try to make the best out of it.

Maybe we're just used to be that too comfortable all time. But the longer we stay, the harder we get the things that we wanted to do.  We're perfect for each other that I'm sure, but what we have right now isn't perfect. Because we have restrictions and all.

But we're halfway there, were looking good now. Nothing could get in our way. Looking back.. I guess I'm glad that we reached "Halfway There". So we take what comes and we'll keep on going. Having each others side. Then we turn around and see that we already have come so far, somehow.

Sick as hell.

1st time I've seen my counterpart this sick and it sickens my heart. I mean seeing her like that. It's that visible too see that she's ill and hurting. I try to be the best counterpart by taking care of her, of course, and making her happy. I'm happy when she's happy. That's it.

Please get well soon.. I love you.

Watch the throne

I waited for the throne to drop. It's finally here. It exceeded my expectations. 


Track listing:

1. No Church in the Wild (Feat. Frank Ocean)
2. Lift Off (Feat. Beyoncé)
3. Ni---s in Paris
4. Otis (Feat. Otis Redding)
5. Gotta Have It
6. New Day
7. Prime Time
8. Who Gon Stop Me
9. Murder to Excellence
10. Welcome to The Jungle
11. Sweet Baby Jesus (Feat. Frank Ocean)
12. Love You So (Feat. Mr Hudson)

Bonus

13. Illest Mother----er Alive
14. H*A*M
15. That’s My Bi---
16. The Joy (Feat. Curtis Mayfield)

My favorite so far is "Who gon stop me" They killed it. 

Possible..

It's impossible to obtain happiness forever, but it sure is possible to have you forever.

I guess I have to live up with these words now.

I can't always be happy. But you can choose to stay with her at least be happy with her.. Well in some cases not all the time, but hello! You have her already.. (You dipshit!) Talking to myself.

Have you ever feel that you've become the worst version of yourself? I always do. That a box full of hateful, insecure parts. Maybe, your arrogance, confidence or some call it swag, that box has been opened? Someone upsets you or disappoints you and instead of smiling and say I'm not like that. You zing them with words that are hurtful. You tend to disagree with them because you're primed that you're not like that. Well, I guess I am. Because the person I love, well she sees it. She knows me better than anyone. I just wish I could throw that box of inadequate attitude and replace it with something virtuous. If she loves me with that box of inadequate attitude.. There's nothing to throw out, but my stubbornness.

The odd thing about this form of communication is that you're likely to talk about nothing than something. But I just want to say that all this nothing has meant more to me than so many somethings.

Bliss...

Being happy. It's the king of all emotions. You can't describe it that easily. Because, we have our different roots of happiness.

Mine is my love, my moon, my sexy bastard, counterpart.

I'm out of words, really... Because Lea is the real deal.. She's a walking proof of my happiness.

That's it. My love for her will never die.