The love that I never knew existed, comes with the pain that I never knew existed. Sometimes when you love someone.. You give your 101% or sometimes the half of it. 101% you give to someone who truly deserves it, the one that you trust.. Even if that someone you know for like a minute ago, you have to take that risk, but it really depends on you. If you think that someone will treasure your trust.. A gut feeling perhaps.
I gave mine to the girl who I knew that never existed, crazy right? It's crazy for me because after knowing this girl for like weeks, I told her that I love her already.. And that's a first. I have said those words. But am not the first one who releases it. It's always the girl. And knowing this girl from UP. I just said it out loud. "I don't like you, I love you." That's how I said it. It changed my life. The world moved. I was on heaven.. I finally said I love to the girl who really earned it. That's a ballsy move for me. I didn't think twice or have doubts when I said that. I'm just that sure. I will marry this girl. It's not always love, well not all of it is love.
Now, as you may know when you love pain comes with it. It's a complete package. It's never a solo deal. If you buy love you have to take pain with you. Now, this pain we call. It really hurts no matter what.. Physically, emotionally, lustfully?! Hehe. It will bring us down to the darkest paths.. It leads one thing to another. When you say one cruel thing, the next one will be easy. Because you know that you've already inflicted pain which makes it easier to inflict more. What can go wrong? Right.. Wrong, it can cause you everything that you have. Specifically one thing that sums up to everything which is that someone that you trusted with your love. You have choices.. We always do. Somehow pain will always be the choice, but it comes with love. I told you it's a package. No matter how painful it is, it comes with a fistful of love and that is not enough. It should be a handful of love.. Or better no more pain. But again it love comes with pain. Sacrificing, analyzing, thinking, learning.. She said to me that, nanghinayang na siyang minahal niya ako. It broke me into pieces like a shattered glass.. Smashed into a million pieces. But you know what. Hindi ako nanghinayang.. Kasi kung hindi dahil sa kanya hindi ako matutuong magmahal ng ganito, and sa kanya ko lang gusto ibuhos lahat yun. I love her, she's my pain, my sorrow, my depression, my craziness, my heartache, my heartbreak.. She's my life. And I'm keeping her forever. No one can take that away from me.
-If you touch her, I'll cut your hands and shove it up on your throat.
-If you look at her, I'll poke you eyes with a pencil.
-If you talk to her, I'll cut your tongue and make it lick a dog's balls.
-If you try to hurt her, you'll be sending yourself into hell.
-If you talk to her bad, I'll humiliate you at the worst possible thing I can do.
-If you try anything against her, you'll be seeing yourself naked in a public place.
I'm just that possessive. Fuck you all if you try to take her away from me.
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