Boring.

Am I boring? That's I ask myself from now an then. I guess, because I was been judged boring. Well, When I was single.. I've been like this for like two years or one, that I'm not sure of. I wasn't boring. I guess, I just don't had the obligations of being a boyfriend yet. Well now I'm obliged to make Lea happy.. Am not complaining that I can't give her that, but what happened is, because of me being boring well she caught it?! (Nahawa)

I can say she did, definitely. Because now she became this home buddy. Well, she's not like that then.. She does the things that makes her happy. Malling with friends, drinking sessions, and having the free spirited kind of thing. I admit I failed to give her that. And it hurts. I really don't know what to do. She's not even excited anymore when I make plans to make her happy. I asked her earlier that I wanted to dance with her.. And the music, So close it played at the movie Enchanted. I felt happy thinking I could waltz her to happiness.. Nothing works anymore. I am still the boring person I know, because I just said those plans never done it. I still love her even if she's being that harsh, brutal honesty. She's not trying to change me she's just trying to make me better.

Lea, just so you know I am the best possible version when I'm with you, and that won't always be the case, because I'm not with you all the time.